the move to Ottawa, a new home, a new housemate

i moved to Ottawa at the beginning of February. since then, i've been feeling more and more homesick. from the beginning, i knew things were almost all anew and that i had a lot to learn. from the beginning, i knew i was going to sign up for classes and activities in the city. since then, we've attended mostly badminton drop-ins. it's great, but really, it's not my kind of socializing.

i've spoken about taking up classes, learning to drive, meeting up with random strangers for language-exchange, etc.. however, i've found excuses for all.

before i go too far, if you look in the first paragraph, i've used the word "we" in one of the sentences. yes, so that's another big change. not only is it a new housemate, it's a significant other. it was definitely easier with just co-habitating with non-romantic activity partners, but to define your day to include someone who is meant to be in your daily life consistently, is somewhat a challenge.

i loved the independence that we both had living in different cities. now, as i realize this moment, i have to relearn that independence. i've grown dependent and i think i'm deteriorating. i need to not give excuses and just figure out how i fit in this city and how i can control more of what i do during the day.